My Lord Neptune (poem)



’tis strange indeed

that times come when

i am beset

with emptiness

it seems

no words can rightly say

what feelings i feel

within me

as mind and heart

are in turmoil

i seek

silence in an empty room

and find it haunted

with madness —

the madness that besieges me

when i think of you —

just as my being,

though empty

is haunted by


’tis restlessness

that strikes me

o’er again

a relentless surging

of nameless waves

against a silent shore

that with the ebbing

empties itself

from an eternity of

defenseless sands

to an eternity of

turbulent tides


i find myself

wavering between sand and sea

in futile struggle

to keep dry

and yet

i long to yield

to Neptune’s embrace,

that though i

can no longer scale

the highest peaks in

my quest for peace,


the Lord of waves

shall suspend me

between sea and sky

and let me be borne

on drenched pillows of

rising clouds

to stars’ abode

where all seems


A Poem: On the He(Art) of Survivors


There is a certain sadness in The Guild.
shreds of human pain
angst that goes deeper than the medium
remnants of violence
pain in heavy lines
bloody reds oozing out of the frames
glimmers of hope
splotches of yellow in rays and sunflowers
empty eyes–but not really
almost temple-like
a shrine to survival
…and death
hanging on a clothesline in a macabre
dance of shadows
like flimsy prayers with
no wind of hope

There is no joyful abandon here.
only mystery, intrigue, innuendos
veiled behind veiled looks, falling hair, shadows
nothing is as it seems
it’s really worse than it looks
streaks of color shift
to webs and tangles of arms, hands, forest, hair
more empty stares
ennui in a bottle
bloody mary in a tub
studied nonchalance hiding behind dark lenses
patches and pastiches of line and color
stark words on a starker background
do the pluses really outweigh the minuses?
surrealistic fairy figures behind pained looks
the greens of the earth bleed
red through ochres and browns
a bright red here, a dark red there
and the red-flowered brown knit ball
on a twisted pole
on a rusted spade
pig’s head? scarecrow? mummified head?
vaguely reminiscent of wild children and flies
and two empty bowls with a ladle
and nothing to ladle out–

are survivors so empty of their being
or are they just waiting to be filled?

27 March 2012