i
white snow-laden trees
outlined by shadowy bark
winter once again.
ii
green winter giants
arms reach out in silent plea
weighed down with wet snow.
i
white snow-laden trees
outlined by shadowy bark
winter once again.
ii
green winter giants
arms reach out in silent plea
weighed down with wet snow.
an empty canvas stands
in my living room waiting
hidden behind the layers of white
a myriad images call to me
begging me to coax them into being
clamoring for attention
paint me! one calls
no, me! croons another
me…me…me… another pleads
and yet another merely stares
with eyeless sight
the tubes and bottles of paint
sit silently accusing me of indecision
my brushes whisper hissing
static releasing sparks in the crisp september air.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
i hitched my dream to a falling star
and like the star it didn’t go far
i hitched my dream to a growing tree
it grew so tall but was not free
i hitched my dream to a free wild bird
it soared up high but was not heard
i freed my dream, let loose its reins
it shouts, it soars, it grows without restraint.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
it’s a Friday night and i’m sitting at home
i’m watching TV but there’s nothing much on
i’m trying to write yet another poem
if the words don’t flow, then to bed i’ll be gone.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
Charlottetown
I think that I shall never see
A government that is tax free
A senator that never lies
or rumours on their own that die
A government that lends a hand
and writes your debts in flowing sand
A government with open arms
and wishes all the earth no harm
with politicians who are wise
or act upon the people’s cries
A dreamer like me always wishes
for a nation free of issues.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
Charlottetown
everyone needs a shoulder to cry on sometimes
someone to brush away tears from your face sometimes
someone to hold you tight, make things seem right sometimes
chase away shadows, scare off the demons sometimes
dark clouds, dark days just won’t leave you alone. sometimes
you need someone. you might think you’re alone sometimes
you feel the world is working against you sometimes
not every day is rainy and cloudy. sometimes
everyone needs to see sunshine, blue skies sometimes
but sometimes you just need to be alone. sometimes.
© 2013 Cindy Lapeña
Charlottetown
welcome the summer rain that battles the heat
hesitant and uncertain
it drops like a spray in spurts then gushes then spurts
sorry raindrops cooling down the air somewhat
but not enough to soak the ground.
© Cindy Lapeña
2013
When the sun is hot and the sky is blue in summertime
even the birds hide to escape the heat because it is summertime
and the heat can be unbearable. When it’s summertime
on the Island all the folk head for beaches to enjoy the summertime
and escape the heat by soaking in the cool ocean during summertime
or shed their winter paleness with a tan they get from summertime.
All the kids are out somewhere in the parks or beaches through the summertime
or dodge the heat in Empire 8 where movies run more often ’cause it’s summertime
and their moms spend more time shopping for the cool air conditioning
and their dads brave the heat at the greens or the club since it’s summertime
and Boomer warns of rain or the chances of it coming all through summertime.
When the heat becomes unbearable and the the people get irritable in summertime
they could not wait for summer when it was still the winter but when summertime
arrives they curse the summer 30s and look forward to some rain in summertime.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
thunder and lightning and papa
i was as proud as a little girl could be
at six
with my very own room
and my very own bed
and my very own closets
and a door i could close
to be alone
until the big storm
when thunder roared
and the lightning
turned the shadow of
our neighbor’s caimito tree
into grotesque arms
swaying and reaching
in the blue-white glow
of the stormy night
and the wind
lashed at the windows
and left an open one
banging
and banging
and banging
i lay awake
crouched under my blankets
trying to shut my eyes
not to see
the monster arms
reaching for me
but they did
and i forgot
how nice it was
to have my very own room
and my very own bed
and my very own closets
and a door i could close
and i screamed
until papa came
and papa stilled
the thunder and lightning
so i could sleep.
Pasig
7 July 1993
4:10 a.m.
…and papa was there
it was a dark and stormy night
and papa was there
to put me to sleep
i had always wanted to be a girl scout
and everyone’s mommy and daddy
was at the induction
to pin the tiny girl scout pin
and tie the white kerchiefs on
i thought no one would come
and just when they called my name
papa was there
mama brought me to my grade school graduation
but didn’t stay
and somewhere in the middle of it all
as i strained to see the tiny faces in the crowd
papa was there
with his camera and his big almost-smile
and when my tummy hurt
really bad in school and
i had to get an appendectomy
before the anaesthetic got to work
papa was there holding my hand
and his eyes and shining eyeglasses
were the last thing i saw
floating next to the iv bottle
and when i walked down the aisle
papa was there holding me
like a little girl again
and smiling and crying
as i was
and when bianca came into the world
i thought i saw papa at the window
in a green surgical smock and cap
and when i woke up
there was a bag of sweets and cakes
and papa
and when i die
wherever i go i’m quite sure
the first thing i see will be papa.
Pasig
7 July 1993
4:55 a.m.
At the end of the day I put my pens and brushes away
I shut down my computer, shut my lessons, shut my books
At the end of the day. I turn off the lights
Bid all goodnight and welcome the night
At the end of the day when it creeps in on spider legs
Swallowing the light and the sky turns gray
It’s the end of the day and the dark sets in
And my world narrows down to the thoughts in my head
Because at the end of the day the world disappears
And I live only in my mind pondering
If another day will end for me at the end of the day.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2013
Charlottetown