reminiscing
as the rain pours
watching drops indistinguishable
from each other
in torrents of memories
hazy sheets on a hazy night
parting in puddles
spiralling
and merging again
in darkened pools
of memories
© Cindy Lapeña, 2012
reminiscing
as the rain pours
watching drops indistinguishable
from each other
in torrents of memories
hazy sheets on a hazy night
parting in puddles
spiralling
and merging again
in darkened pools
of memories
© Cindy Lapeña, 2012
reaching out
i find empty space
where you should have been
where you were in my dream
and i bury my head in my pillow
and pull the sheets about me
trying to find you.
what words can tell
how you’ve always been a part of me
always, since we parted ways —
oh, so long ago —
half of my life was missing
half of my life was empty
till you came back into my life
and i still don’t know
what words to say
© Cindy Lapeña, 2012
thunderclouds and ligntning
filled the sky.
i met a dream
that walked with me
for but a moment
of euphoric haze
a dream
that touched me
and for a moment
we walked
in a drizzle
of honeyed rain
soaked through
with blissful warmth
that burned
with fierce glow
of white fire
and drowned
in torrents
a blackened downpour
of blinded fury
shattering the serenity
of sleeping soil
rending the bloody earth
in two
the honeyed rain
seeping through
unfathomed depths
leading — where?
the roots exposed
reach out
to bridge an impossible
gap
that greedily swallows
the tears of heaven.
i gaze across and see
my dream
calling me
our fingertips brush
lightly
over the chasm.
should we clasp
each other and
together
fall
through a vortex of void blackness
the clamor
of our descent would be
dimmed by
the din of
thunderclouds and
lightning.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2012
a birth
is all it takes
to commence a lifetime
of existence
in a world
of living;
a death
merely punctuates
reality
jarring us
into the realization
that
life exists;
love
is what makes it all
more painful.
© Cindy Lapeña, 2012
my mind it seems
has wrought a million lines
all thought
is centered round
you and
when no more words
come pouring out
i seek
a peaceful cove
to hide myself
where i can watch
the sea as it
endlessly
bathes the shore
and i dream
of you as i feel
the warm waves
caressing me
as you once did
and i find
comfort knowing
that once before
we loved.
and as the sea
returns forever
in tireless innuendo
courting a still shore
that yields
no more than but
few grains of sand
each time
i yield with each return
a little bit of me
until
no more is left
to yield
after an eternity.
on moonless nights as this i find
in aimless flights of dreams, my mind
and though a million thoughts cruise by
the last one ever makes me sigh
i’ve dreamt of hills and mountains tall
greens and plains, i’ve seen them all
the moon and stars are common sights
likewise the sun with brilliant light
on earth the sweetest songs i’ve heard
and all but one were sung with words:
all haunting tunes of love-worn lines
that fade too soon with passing time.
the sweetest song if ever true
all nature sings when i’m with you.
softly plays
the music as i
lie in the dark
waiting
and soon the madness
begins as i
quiver with every
chord struck
my body tensed
like violin strings
feeling
your symphonies of
unbridled passion
playing over me
like nocturnes
gently, slowly
mounting to a
frenzied crescendo
of deafening
scales chromatically
rising
an octave higher
each time until
the notes strike
fortississimo
in a second that
lasts
for eternity
it seems
the strings should
break as they
dance with the
melody till
ever so gently
in diminuendo
the passion subsides
and plays adagio
again, ever so
softly as in
a whisper
engulfed by darkness
the movement
reaches coda.
so
here i sit
another night
slowly passing
creeping with the seconds
towards another day
recounting
memories of
you
dreaming
as on a mistral vessel
floating
o’er a sea of
passion spent and
past reckonings
fading
in the mist
in vap’ry clouds
of moon-forgoten
dew
rising
as only
you can cause them
to encircling
minds fogged
with
unspoken lines of
musk-scented
emotions
shackled
by unyielding norms
created by
pickled
brains beyond
the shadows of
shadows free
dancing
rejoicing
o’er birth of
eternity merging
pulsating with
slivers of
reality
sparkling
reflecting
an image of
my love.
so like the fair Narcissus.
with trembling fingers
numbed as though
’twere marbled features
they traced —
the chiselled profile of
bones so finely wrought
that accent a brow so fine
and cheeks so sharp
against a jaw so firm;
what thickly lashed
mysterious pools of black
that reflect a haughty glint,
and such a mouth
that marbled though
exudes a warmth
that lures me as
there my fingers stop, moist.
what mystic marble
from what land begot
are you carved from,
that breathes as man,
and in my arms
is warmer than a furnace?
what steely strength is it
that through your fingers
courses, that causes me
to bend, inferior to
your might though
like a summer breeze
you blow?
what strange alliance have you
with what gods in
distant peaks —
perchance
the strength of
Hercules’ smith
or is it Eros’ breath?
nay, Hermes has but lent
his wings that swift
your words fly home
to me and i
am snared within
your arms and helpless
in your sight —
but for your beauty and
your charms i
would not with Echo vie.
have you no moment but
to spare than but
to gaze
at your reflection?
ah, vanity, thy name is man!
what then can women serve?
so like the fair Narcissus,
would that you were
my love.
so, can i liken thee to one so fair
who wields what bow for sport
whose image as from marble carved
seems in its perfect beauty, live
so live in me with thine words
as only thou can whisper
or set my heart with fiercest blaze
with thine enchanter’s eyes.